Museless Mutterings

Do you want to make a difference? TWLOHA

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 05:23:50 GMT

GAH

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 08:20:47 GMT

-bounces happily-

Okay, considering I'm writing this when I'm not only really tired, but also not thinking quite so clearly....this is going to be a rough draft.

More details later but....

I went on a date ^__^

Yay for me!

/bouncing

Johari

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 10:56:51 GMT

Okay,

Well, this is kind of a lame post to make after so long of not posting anything really worthwhile but... it's what I got.

So if you want, feel free to take a stab at it. Thanks ^^

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Ferxook

Sometimes I think that maybe it wouldn't be worthwhile to post somewhere like here, where you'd think people hardly know you. But in fact, places like this may be the best because that's sometimes where everyone knows exactly who you are. And that's pretty much why I love having online friends. There's so much less of a feeling of needing to hide who you truly are, and it's both very wonderful and very freeing.

I hope that makes some sense, and I'm glad I added a bit more depth to this post than what I intended originally :]

Ciao mi amigos,

Ferxook.

Hoobastank - Same Direction

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 03:34:41 GMT

Okay,
so.. this is a song that I've really liked -I know it's a bit old but please be patient- and I've just been thinking more and more lately, and this song seems to really embody at least part of my philosophy. I just decided to post it here because it's basically my entry for today and important so far as getting a clue to "me". Which is what I feel this journal is all about. So...enjoy and comment if you have any questions.

Whenever I step outside, somebody claims to see the light.
It seems to me that all of us have lost our patience.
'Cause everyone thinks they're right, and nobody thinks that there just might
be more than one way to our final destination.

But I'm not ever gonna know if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction.
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
we've been going in the same direction.

I'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame
for all the holes in answers that are clearly showing,
for something to fill the space. Was all of the time I spent a waste,
'Cause so many choices point the same way I was going?

But I'm not ever gonna know if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction.
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
we've been going in the same direction.

Going in the same direction--

Same direction-- (Same direction)

So why does there only have to be one correct philosophy?
I don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them.
And why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?
I'd like to think that I can go my own way and meet you in the end.
Go my own way and meet you in the end.

I'm not ever gonna know... if I'm right or wrong
'cause we're all going in the same direction.
And I'm not sure which way to go because all along
we've been going in the same direction

Going in the same direction

Going in the same direction--

Same direction-- (Same direction)

Lyrics borrowed from: http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Same-Direction-lyrics-Hoobastank/D5CA3477E70C30A748256DF8000ED8EE

Sick

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 23:47:22 GMT

Ewwwww....I'm sick D:

After I successfully rode the stupid greyhound for around 16 hours (with a layover at the Seattle station of around 3 hours), the next morning I woke up to find out that I had an AWFUL headcold. Since then (Saturday), it's been spreading pretty much. From one side of my head to the other, and then down into my chest. However, it's also been decreasing in severity thank God. Otherwise, I may not be alive to post this T_T

Otherwise, I've been chilling and still hanging out with family and friends. I also plugged in my PS2 not too long ago, so I've been playing Devil May Cry 3 and Kingdom Hearts II. I'm already addicted in my own way to both ^^;;

Devil May Cry is so....amazing! I only have it because it was cheap and my friend thought Dante was very HOT (as she let me know many times). I've never played any other game in the franchise, but it had me from the opening basically. I'm a partial action fiend, so it made me very happy :D Also, Dante kicks total ass. I already love him to pieces. Personally, no matter how many times I get my ass kicked...he'll make me come back time and time again. Then there's the controls. Personally, I'm not a PS2 person (these two games are the first I've owned for it) but the controls were really easy for me to grasp for the most part and lots of fun to handle.

Now....Kingdom Hearts. Well, I thought I had gotten Kingdom Hearts I, but instead I got two.. Yes. I am an idiot. Laugh now or forever hold your peace >.>;; I played the first one for a little, and two of my friends are really into the series so I decided to buy it. Lucky that I had played the first or I would've been totally mindfucked by suddenly playing the game two and the game pretty much assuming for some part that I already knew what the hell I was doing. Anyways...I love Roxas. He's an adorable character, and his attitude is lots of fun. He's also a little more fun to control somehow than Sora. So I was disappointed of course when I had to give him up T_T
But basically, the game is pretty simple and so much fun to play. I don't like waiting for the save spots, but then again I'm used to games where you can save wherever the hell you want. But overall it rocks. I love Disney and I love Final Fantasy though so I may be biased.

Oh, and I totally killed my friend's mind when I told her Kingdom Hearts was a thing that has Disney and Final Fantasy characters in the same game. Hahahaha ^^

And damn, I just forgot she'll be here in like....5 minutes and I'm not even dressed. Guess I'll talk to you all later! Bye!

WSU

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 19:49:21 GMT

Hello all,

I'm here at Washington State University with my lovely best friend, staying with her for not only her birthday, but for most of the week before she starts school. It's been pretty sweet, and I've had alot of fun and time to think. There's tons of hills here (most of the campus is built on a hill actually) and so we've been doing a heckofa lot of walking lately. However the campus is gorgeous, and the weather hasn't been too bad for Washington. Although being here has actually made me grateful and happy when it rains. Crazy, no?

It gets hellish when it's hot here. Like, I'm talking humidity and 100 degrees outside at 6:30 at night. Ugh. It sucked just a bit when we first got here, but now it's nice and cool and doesn't get too hot.

Anyways, it's been a nice time here and I'm kind of sad to leave but I'll be happy to get back to things on the west side. This whole experience makes me strangely excited for college though, but a little paranoid too. If breakups can be considered tramautizing, then they most definitely are in my case is all I'm going to say. I don't want to bore anyone with whining about something that I apparently already should be over. Though there is no way in this universe that I understand that logic.

Anyways, I'll write more when I get back, but just felt like putting something down for now. I should be getting an R4 chip sometime when I get back though....so I may be a little distracted ^^;;

Huh, sort of figured....but still suprised and joyful nonetheless :D

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 18:05:58 GMT

Dan is the man. He hast saved one of my favorite sites from death ^_^

So it ends up that NM isn't dying after all, which sort of leaves me with mixed emotions. The biggest one being pure "YAYYYY :DD".
I'm really glad I won't have to worry about losing some of the friends I made on there, or not being able to pursue future possible friendships. In a way that site is so much more social than if myspace, twitter, and facebook had a child. Seriously. It's also the first site of that kind (the forum, common interest type) that I've kept up with and continued to post on. It also helped me with my emotions alot during various stages in life where it well.....sucked ass. There's probably a better expletive I could've used but...I'm more tired than creative now ^^;; I just really hope that Dan (and PL) know how many people's lives have been changed through that. But then again, we'd want to be careful about boosting their egos too high now wouldn't we?

But in a way, I'm sort of disappointed. It's kind of funny to see how a lot of people were saying their goodbyes, or -on my part- trying to figure out what their last words to NM would be. I was so ready to say goodbye, well...not completely ready, I made myself this LJ, I joined the <3notmine forum, and I set my goal to finish at 429 thoughts. Everything was prepared, and woops! nevermind NM is saved. I don't mean to say that I would like NM to go away -I really mean it when I say YAYYY at it's revival-, it's just now a little confusing. Heh, and now I'm showing my inability to explain things properly. But I can't explain it really anymore than I did. I'm just...disappointed. It's kind of...what's there to do now that everything's normal? Go back to how it was? Yes, but now that my emotions are all jangled from what I've gone through...normal just doesn't connect so well I guess.

Well, those are my thoughts. Take 'em or leave 'em. Hope I didn't confuse the crap out of you ^^;;

Movies and Whatever

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 03:34:51 GMT

I really am a movieholic I guess. And a music whore. Or maybe I just have a really obsessive personality.
God, that would be kind of creepy. Good luck for me ever finding my "perfect" guy or whatever.
Anyways...I really love to watch movies. And I tend to suggest seeing a movie at least 90% of the time
friends or whoever ask me what we should do. It's really not because I'm a boring person or can't think of anything else to do-well, maybe that isn't altogether true-it's because that's what I really like to do...watch movies with people. It's my hobby I guess. My sometimes overly obsessive, very passionate hobby. ^^

So in case you ever want to know my favorite thing to do, or I ever ask you to go out to see a movie with me,
you'll know ;)

Just another random thought of mine for today. I guess this journal might be less of a journal and more of a collection of random thoughts that go through my head at the moment. So be prepared for some weird stuff then :P

You has been forewarned.

NM

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 01:22:48 GMT

Hey,
Totally forgot! For anyone who finds me here from notemine....this is Ferxook just to let you know.
Feel free to add me as a friend if you wish.

Sometimes...

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:55:54 GMT

Sometimes I just feel that alot in my life is too much of a coincidence.
Too many that I would really not like to appear, appear.
But, sometimes I also wonder along with this:
I am just that obsessive?
Do I just end up seeing that many things that aren't really there?
Do I want to see them there that badly?
Sometimes...I wonder about myself. And I continue to worry.